Fic: 221b - So bad one can taste it (1/2)

[anarion]

Title: So bad one can taste it (1/2)
Words: a 221B has 221 words and ends with a b-word
Rating: PG-13
Pairings : Sherlock/John
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: Not mine.

Summary: ‘365 days of 221Bs’ challenge: a prompt a day, given by atlinmerrick. Day 283.




Previous 221b: Yo, ho and a bottle of rum


Today's prompt: need

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So bad one can taste it (1/2)


Sherlock had needed John from the first moment he had met him. That he wanted him he realised much later.

He never knew that it was possible to live without a crucial part of oneself for more than thirty years and not notice it, but apparently it was. He always knew something was missing but he never knew what. He just assumed the fault lay within himself. He was damaged in so many other aspects already.

So what if he had no heart, as he had been reassured many times? He had no use for it anyway.

But once he had found the missing part, he knew that losing it would kill him. Losing him would kill him. John was like air and sustenance, no, more. John was like data. Something so valuable and essential that Sherlock was ready to do anything to keep him: Lie, break the law, commit treason and murder. He realised that he’d rather kill himself than lose John.

Even now, after being married to John for 5 years, nothing has changed about that.

His want comes and goes, sometimes in waves that almost drown out everything else and sometimes nothing more than a tingling sensation simmering just under the surface, but his need is a constant powerful beat thrumming in the core of his being.




Next 221b: So bad one can taste it (2/2)


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AN:
The prompt was 'need'.

This really is only complete with part two...










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Comments

[chocolamousse.livejournal.com]

He always knew something was missing but he never knew what. He just assumed the fault lay within himself. He was damaged in so many other aspects already.
*wants to hug insecure!Sherlock*

Sherlock was ready to do anything to keep him: Lie, break the law, commit treason and murder. He realised that he’d rather kill himself than lose John.
You realise it looks a bit ominous as for part two, don't you? *checks there's no "angst" tag* I hope it will be, for example, John's POV, or an illustration of how badly Sherlock wants him and not the story of how Sherlock killed himself rather than lose him. Also, your title is a little intriguing!
*waits eagerly for part two*

[treelight.livejournal.com]

Awww, this is beautiful. Especially "John was like data", when seen through Sherlock's lovely eyes ;)

I can't wait for part 2!

[verityburns.livejournal.com]

Gosh, that's really beautiful! Great job of getting into Sherlock's head here, I love it.

[atlinmerrick.livejournal.com]

"He just assumed the fault lay within himself. He was damaged in so many other aspects already"

Poor Sherlock.

And then lucky Sherlock. Because now he *does* have that crucial part. He always will.